Gray area

Day one of a multi-week employment hiatus between summer jobs and fall.  This is both the pro and con of being associated with the field of education/kids.  My biggest problem right now is finding balance.  I haven't had a day off or an actual vacation in.... I don't even know.  When I took a day off during the year it was most likely to do something else for another job!  I'm currently trying to balance being responsible/getting my house in order, four brand new pieces of choreography, producing a festival, trying to take a moment to relax, searching for a new stimulating day job, catching up on work for the multiple orgs I am committed to, and so much more.

This sounds complain-y, but it's not, exactly.  I love most of the things I am currently doing, I just don't exactly love that I have zero free time.  There are a lot of gray areas, since sometimes I consider working on choreography or a new project using free time, buttttt it's also work to an extent.

So.  Before I really start rambling, the goal is to get boring work done, get the exciting work done, and carve out a tiny chunk of time just for me over the next couple of weeks.  Additional sleep would probably be good, but we are heading into 24-Hr ChoreoFest so...

workworkwork

Being a creator is damn tough.

Being an overacheiving artist that cannot seem to say no to anything because who knows what it can turn into is even tougher.

The minute I get inspired or start building visions in my head it's all over and I get sucked in!

I love it and it's wonderfully stressful and all consuming and then I say I'm never going to do it again, and then BAM what do you know guess what I'm doing again.

In the process I'm in love with the project though, and it's hard to make sure I don't abandon my home/life/family in the midst.

This doesn't really apply to Luminarium stuff, I'm pretty much always in love with Lumiarium work and feel justified and productive and happy and never regretful.  That feels good, at least!